| Petitioning The Empty Sky
The Saddest Day
And we won't be breathing in that same sun again
None of this will ever surface again
How we get older, how we forget about each other
And the angel falls to the sky
Raised and coiled she blessed this day she did
And it rings our ears
She rarely flies anymore, burden broke her wings
And I know this ghost, I have seen it before
Young it is the dying too fast, too soon, I'll be okay
The air thins in the quick and our lips move but we hear no sound
She whispered "Every time you justify, another good in you dies"
Your faith and fear seared me, and love and you pull all the right strings
"How we get older, how we forget about each other", she said
Entwined within the sadder of days
Forsaken
The cedar doesn't do much for these memories
I am as cold as the monuments you left for me
And another one passes in the evening
A knee deep grave and the two that raised
and a tin box for the two that I loved
And I carry on
Please lay out my best suit for me
and tell me every word you want to hear
Every word you have said to yourself to be perfect in the end
and I carry on
A tin box for the two that loved
Carry on
Albatross
Five lives dead and gone
We breathe out of key and wonder
if you can hear the awkwardness in these tremors
Draining, cutting this cancer out
Teeth gaping yet I make no sound
Six hammers and one sky, falling
Five lives dead and gone
Mediocrity in believing in everything
and this lack of will has buried them forever
Dead
You never loved me
now I cannot lie down in that bed
I cannot lie down in all of those old fears
I haven't slept, singe the colors from my glances
If I was bleeding, would you tell me?
If I was speaking, would you hear me?
You asked for everything but never loved
If I was praying, would you kill me?
You never loved me
Dead
Shingles
I float above and these wings catch, and your sky hold you so beautiful
And I understand if all this comes falling, because my sky already has
And my head bows, all of this I know
And all of your precious love, you can paint as light as you see
And you can make reasons for everything
But as long as I dream some thing will always be
Gun in my mouth, I pray for the sunshine
Gun in my mouth, I pray for the sunshine
Buried But Breathing
For the dying beautiful and the infinite end
I never got to say, I never had the chance to listen
I missed that train
Buried but breathing with this evening's sleep
Buried but breathing, these devils weep
Farewell Note To The City
Disenchanting the romantic
This is the real, this is the shame
These limbs search feverishly for the gift of gravity
Coarse twine tears clean
And I have thought about this very instance for all time
Decades longer than you or I
Crimson comforting, scorching this flesh
giving its caring for me
And I have thought about these moments for all time
dangling from a silver lining
these lungs welcome the crimson tide of misfortune
Hell to pay
This is my farewell to this city
Color Me Blood Red
Please love, just come home again
Just let this one pass, there will be another
And in this laughter before the pain
Every deliberate hung by my left hand
Eyelids fludder and warm water floods my nostrils
Neck deep I cry high
Together we sleep, slouched discolored porcelain
dreaming of those elucid moments
when smiles hung high
Limbs outstretched
A bad moon rising
Faucet turning
Desolation churning
Drowning in what we've become
Neck deep I cry high
I have spilled dry for you
and you cannot fathom the notion
that it was the end of something
This is our end
For You
And I cannot stop shaking because you cannot stop shaking
and these chords they are trembling because your words they are bleeding
And these holes in my hands are for you, just for you
She called out to her maker to now be her savior
My love, these holes in my hands are for you, just for you
Home Song
For words, two minutes, three years
for my fingertips to grow numb
Could this be the moment
when the "finally" becomes the "wish i could"?
Desperation and outstretched memories
now I see you only in bad dreams
I never reset
I only see you in bad dreams
Let me explain
Close enough to feel your words
Far enough to read your flesh
When Forever Comes Crashing
My Unsaid Everything
I said that name and skipped a heartbeat
I said it with a second chance and a forgetful smile
I said it with the faint glimmer of suicide
I tasted my wreckage in our conversations
deep under the faint hums of far gone engines
With all signal flares blazing we lay somewhere inbetween
the smear of yellow lines and empty promises
I long for the grant of wings
I long for the dead of night when all of this passes
You never meant those three words
now I can't remember how to set my heart alight
You never meant a word, not a fucking word of it
I am so sick of goodbyes
I'm so sick of committing suicide
I am so sick of the inbetween now and then
So sick of swinging the hammer
So sick of my suicide
of burying every hero that I had
The High Cost Of Playing God
Falling head over heals for burden and bright light
A high cost of playing god I guess
Please, tell me how to survive in this
The unforgiving role of seeing too much
under the dead wake of morning
I'm finding solace in a diseased heart
and I'm findling love in acts of desperation
You're no angel my friend, you're no angel
And here we are teetering on the edge of tired departure
and there you are with a blessing from below
With one drop for every callous ending
and one drop for every ungranted wish
Spare me the day when I discover a new found low
In Harms Way
Good night dear angel
I won't be back here in burden
I don't think we'll ever meet again
She said that antiseptic words are just sorry answers
and I'd have to agree
No, I don't think we'll ever meet again
We give everything for nothing
Make me an offer I can't refuse
Give me a reason and I'll give you an excuse
I get lost in eyes like that
Thanks but no thanks
God never did me and favors
Conduit
There was nothing that I ever wanted more
than for you to hold this deep within your heart
To lay beside me as my halo bums deep to cinder
and to the wale me from my tired life
To give this ghost a home again
When you fall short and I fall short
this is where I pretend I'm as tall as the sky
Now there is no comfort in your apology
and no comfort in this shame
This is where I can duck for cover
from the overwhelming, from the forever overhead
For the heart, for old time's sake, I'll stay warm with this
Numb from the neck up
She married me with a sypathy kiss
She married me with her heart shaped tomb
These days daydreams don't burn as bright as they us to
and your broken promises are boiling over
Every syllable my swinging hammer
and every hesitation is a loss to them
In the name of those lost to you
for them this time it is war
For me it's easier to just walk away
The Lowest Common Denominator
Everything is not going to be okay
Towing Jehovah
Well worn wings crumble too tired to forgive
and too battered to ever forget
I am the labor, I am this
I hang as your beloved hex
I'll bring the nails, and fevers of bad dreams
Nail him, burden her
Kill you, bury them, it's all the same
Holding your rope, try to forget me now
Great leveller, try to forget my name on a day like this
When Forever Comes Crashing
For the swarms will come and reap your daydreams
With love and hope
For the fears and blood stains faith are woven
With her yearn for war
And the sadder song of broken wings
heard through the battered pavement among this city
Deafening, it betrays me in the sweetest of dreams
These moments can't avoid you
Tonight the lonesome sky opens wide
Forgive me
2 AM
My city lights burn bright as day
catching the flattering silhouettes of the tired and the damned
Here I am tapped clean out of respect
walking waist deep in ruin
If this is need then I never wanted you
Your love was paralyzing
This is a monument to our everything
before our forever comes crashing
I loved you
Ten Cents
I'm losing sleep a thousand miles away from my you
Unloved in the dialtone
It's just not that simple when the perfect words
just don't ever seem to fit
She just slipped under harmony
and now I'm empty handed
I'm just half empty, a second best
Somewhere it's too soon
Just not enough
It's never enough
Year Of The Swine
You carry the loyalty of dogs
so you shall be led to the slaughter as swine
It all seemed so real when you whispered
adorned with the best of intentions
Bleeding softly
It's late and my ears can't listen
and there is no one to lift me to my feet
But still I dream of you
twisting and contorting beneath a garbage bag veil
And this is how it ends
Pretty and black as the soul
Just for one split instant I want to be the lucky one
Not to have the pleasure
of tasting the salt of my own tears when we kiss
Love As Arson
All these fairy tale forevers welcome everyone in
and it's no wonder that she fell from this great blue sky
I can still taste my defeat on these lips
and you still have Hell welled up in your eyes
I will burn that bridge when we get to it
Erase the sun
To those who've killed this hope, a presage
I will rise again
Phoenix in flight, I'm here to break your wings
I welcome this
I won't let this heart stop beating
I will rise again and again and again
I will rise again
Jane Doe
Concubine
Dear, I'll stay gold just to keep these pasts at bay
To keep the loneliest of the nights from claiming you
and to keep these longest day from waking you
For I felt the greatest of winters coming
and I saw you as seasons shifting from blue to gray
Thats where the coldest of these days await me
and distance lays her heavy head beside me
There I'll stay gold, forever gold
Fault And Fracture
You were the most beautiful as the damage and the trauma
Pounding hard with battered wings of destiny
You were my last great war
You were my heaven ablaze
Riddled with faults and fractures
And I spent the last of days burning my oldest of bridges
And I spent my last of night killing the best of friends
In the company of thieves, liars, beggars and whores
I'll lay waiting, just waiting for my time to come
Distance And Meaning
And like that heart that got in the way
I'll become the lost cause
The children of burden and rage
Like the distance in your touch
Like the years were burned down
I heard that phone call
The hesitation, the awkward silence
I felt everything in those seconds
Splinters of sentence and heartless advice
Nothing is changed but these days entwined
Hell To Pay
Cheap lips, soft eyes, lost in the most blinding lights
As cold as those first nights alone
As the second best hell become
Sleep deep girl, dream well
That night I think he cried himself to sleep
Just maybe he felt more than we could ever know
And I think he pulled that trigger to empty that memory
I think he cut the weight to end the floods of you
Let him soar, let him ride as budding gravestone do
Just sleep, girl, just dream well
Homewrecker
I have bled and I have given
the longest of rivers and the longest of ropes
And you're not grasping
and my light is sinking on the horizon
Knee deep among your wreckage and uncertainty
with anguish my crown and heartbreak my throne
I lay claim to this day
No love, no hope
I've lost count of the second chances
I lay claim to this day
No love, no hope
The Broken Vow
Those nights we had and the trust we lost
The sleep that fled me and the heart I lost
It all reminds me just how callous
and heartless the true cowards are
And I write this for the loveless
And for the risks we take
I'll take my love to the grave
As tired and worn it is
I'll take my love to the grave
Bitter and Then Some
Death to cowards, traitors, and empty words
To those adorned with the touch of rose petals
And the blessed gift of forgetfulness
For these are your years and days to outshine
Push on and soar higher
This is your memory
Your everything and the inbetween
Push on and soar higher
Heaven In Her Arms
Death was a simple glance across a dim lit room
And those eyes did it
Those three words did it
Those three words killed him
And I surrender to you
Forgive me for the sadness
And the bringing of you down
I just needed a lover and I needed a friend
And there you were
Running from forever like all the rest
Three simple words bled me dry
Three simple word bled us dry
I love you
Phoenix In Flight
And I write this to you my dear
For your eyes alone
I'm out of heart and these tanks are low
So cast your days to flame
and set your phoenix to flight
Let her turn to ash
among these fluorescent lights
Let your love drift deeper
let her wings catch the sky
Just remember my name, girl
and remember what died
Phoenix In Flames
She burns as bright as the sun
and she falls darker than night
She shines as light as these days
And she fades faster than time
Phoenix in flames
Thaw
In the want, the need, and this desperation
You'll find me as the time bomb
As the last great stand in this history
When all our roads traveled
And all have come to a most bitter end
Today I thaw
Jane Doe
These floods of you are unforgiving
Pushing passed me spilling through the banks
And I fall
Faster than light and faster than time
Thats how memory works
At least in the dark where Im searching for meaning
When I'm just searching for something
I want out
Out of every awkward day
Out of every tongue tied loss
I want out
Out of the burdening night sweats
Out of the rising seas of blood
Lost in you like saturday nights
Searching the streets with bedroom eyes
Just dying to be saved
Run on girl
Run on
You Fail Me
i need you to be the strength of widows and soul survivors
i need you to be as fearless as new mothers and new fathers
i need you to be the hope of hearts who lost true love
i need you to be the might of their first kiss
i need a purpose and i need a reason
i need to know that there is trophy and meaning
to all that we lose and all we fight for
to all our loves and our wars
keep breathing
keep living
keep searching
keep pushing on
keep bleeding
keep healing
keep fading
keep shining on
this is for the hearts still beating
thousand miles
forgetting
anything
everything
wheels racing
black cloud gaining ground
engine roars
rain pours down
the chase is on
my black cloud
gaining ground
three years spent
outrunning
my demon
and her ring
keep moving
with engine heart
and boiled blood
i will push on down
my wounded roads
i can outrun
i will outrun you all
horsepower hope
find me a home
in brand new arms
that won’t let go
racing on to my end
amphetamine
raised her since three
he was a hope to be gutter king
both unravelled at their seams
that were never sewn
she never had a choice
they never had a chance
he never had a choice
they never had a chance
all their devils and all their demons
walk with me as they walked with them
all their devils and all their demons
haunting me as they haunted them
giving out
giving in
keep on searching
keep on running
suicide eyes
just keep hunting
for new hearts
to break
for old wounds
to make
no one will break your fall
keep on moving
keep on hiding
in ripe new lives
you are destroying
finding comfort
in their wreckage
you kill new hope
with old pain
no one will break your fall
i’m stopping this slow death
by letters never sent
i’m killing one way romance
and its words never read
i’m leaving love’s lost battles
to the vulture’s need to feed
i’m leaving you
i’m leaving them
and learning to be me
heart is everything
heart is you
love is you
hell is you
loss is you
heartless
you fail me with every fatal crush
you fail me with every abandoned love
you fail me with your inferno fuck me eyes
that burn as fuel for my city and its neon lights
burn bright white line fever take them all
you fail me with your new dead end dream
you fail me with your pill box fantasy
you fail me as love’s greatest war
that was never worth
you were never worth fighting for
dying living dying living dying everyday
living dying living dying living everyday
you think you are a poet
in your eyes you are a star
who lives through a fantasy of rising above
you think you’re a victim
but you live as a drunk
that has never sacrificed that has never loved
you think you are tragic but i know you are lost
you have walked the fault lines
and you have crossed them all
this world doesn’t fight you you fight yourself
thinking we fail you you fail yourself
she is at the end chasing her own fading light
running from her shadow in the name of living
searched for worth in the lust of men
paid in blood in different beds
mistaking sex for true love
they never meant a thing
her addiction brought her a world
of coward boys and of cheater girls
looking for an easy way out of being ordinary
so she boarded their sinking ship
and crossed their red needle sea
drowning truth to live her lie
that she was ordinary
in her fading shadow
in new day dreams a promise gives way
to a star struck death and a gold disease
a hollywood end for a once great man
who found death on his knees
cashed in crashed and burned
sore sour sore
our eagles become our vultures
i’ve searched with pen and paper
i search to show you
just how far i broke from myself
in the name of fear and doubt
in a better world there would be a better me
without the chase that won’t leave me be
wolves at my door keep all your wars
i’m going home to bed
i’ve paid more death then you will ever live
let me live
leave me be
let me live
leave me
you haunt me
broken promise
two year mourning
dead ringer
old dead ending
new dead ends
in every sleep my blood boils
it is my sheep they follow
my flocks are falling out of love
dead ringer
old dead ending
new dead ends
you haunt me
in pine box days
in red nights coming
take your crown
stand your ground
plague queen
death king
you are nothing more than dying royalty
you are nothing more than a fading drama queen
your spelling errors in love letters just stole your crown
you are nothing more than late night fantasy
you are nothing more than a rehearsed tragedy
your spelling errors in love letters just killed your dream
just killed you
you are nothing more than a dim lit whore
you are nothing more than a crashing bore
in your blood paid
you chase a shadow that will fade out as pain
i keep paying
when you keep taking
please stop running
and just start living
me without you
i have learned to live without your light
that burned so bright
you are half the heart and half the will
hanging moon
haunting you
hanging moon
be my light in this world of darkness
No Heroes
Heartache
we are all falling down
we are all falling
every word that you pray
makes another slave
every idol that you build
brings another plague
every cross that you bear
grows another grave
we are all falling down
we are all falling
down down down
we are all falling
under the weight
of our heartache
under the weight
of their mistakes
Hellbound
for lost hope and his son
i’ll avenge what once was
for his name and his love
these cold hands spill their blood
grant me the strength
to stand up straight
to make them pay
spill their blood
grant me the strength
to bear this weight
show me the way
spill their blood
Sacrifice
hit the lights
i’ve had enough
guilt to build a city
shame to fill a sea
reasons to give up and lose everything
regret to burn this body
filth to cut these hands
reasons to bury this and everything we have
hit the lights
just hit the lights
i don’t care anymore
Vengeance
enemies eve
burn to believe
guns in the ground
are all i see
love liars thieves
all targets to me
jaws at my heels
mean nothing to me
knives at your throats
all that i see
don’t doubt me
i am vengeance
i’m built for war
No heroes
in vein and valor
be what they fear
their days are over
our nights are here
with hate and heartache
i’ll strike you down
with rage and rapture
i crush your crown
no more gods
no more graves
no more love
no more hate
hell hammer comes down
onto their blade
our world of widows
needs to be saved
it’s now or never
victim or victory
rebel or regret
who you are and who you claim to be
no more heroes
no more
no more
in my world of enemies
i walk alone
Plagues
dark days
greet us
with teeth
with claws
her wings climb
cold eyes
gaze wide
with awe
with spite
everyone
everywhere
every beast
every man
pays her price
Grim heart / black rose
when i see me in your eyes
i just want to go blind
when i build coffin worlds with words
i just want a place to hide
when old ghosts meet new regrets
my daylight fades to grey
when our days bring guilt and shame
my heart turns black
these are my tombs
painted black and blue
these are my tombs painted
just for you
goodnight
goodnight dear
goodbye
black rose
be my light
in the darkness of nights
be my heart
Orphaned
bright eyes fading
young eyes beaten
to black and blue
sunrise has been sinking since i was two
one wounded and another dead
i’ve spent years
building these walls
when all of this time
my sky has been falling
burden to bare
this anger is
empty but heavy
my heart carries
the weight of your world
my wounds are open
i am out of blood
Lonewolves
from a victim to a friend
don’t ever let them in
keep your scars on your sleeve
and your heart in your hands
all the whores with their wars
their gaping mouths want more
all of them choke on regret
we sit in silence
dead or dedicated
alive or medicated
a coward queen or harlot heart
it’s up to you
this world owes you nothing
this world owes me nothing
this world owes us nothing
but a hard road to walk
these mountains that we climb
is everything they’ve lost
this world owes us nothing
but a hard road to walk
these mountains that we move
are everywhere we look
it’s all up to me and you
Versus
it’s us versus them
just us versus them
jaws are biting at your heels
we hunt you in bad dreams
we know just what you are
and the secrets that you keep
cloven hoof is pounding
faster than your heart
strength in desperation
and the sting of loss
time to cut them down
it’s us versus them
time to take a stand
it’s us versus them
Trophy scars
in pure ghost white
i see what was mine
drowned in jet black
that haunts your shadows
endless night begins
this forked road now bends
a forked tongue appears
to lead us astray
all this that i have
is all that you are
cutting for love
a new trophy scar
just not worth the tears
and the penance
not worth the blood
that we both pour
i want to live
without the guilt we give
i want to die without this pain
i want to live
without the guilt we give
i want to die
without your name
without this pain
born to burn
with hell to pay
born to burn
we will someday
Bare my teeth
in cold blood
i claim this day
i charge blind
into the fray
in the name
of all my pain
i bare my teeth
to make him pay
i sink on down
and greet her end
with the worms
and the dead
with serpent strength
and true hate
i bare my teeth
to make her pay
maw mends
i take flight
for one last time
with raven wings
and two black eyes
don’t be afraid
with demon speed
the gift of hate
i bare my teeth
to make them pay
don’t be afraid
nowhere to hide
To the lions
to the lions
as she closes her doors
to end this night
this raging sea
won’t have you
this weary grave
won’t keep you
these tired arms
won’t hold you
as she closes her doors
to the lions
inferno dreams
won’t leave you
this moonless night
won’t guide you
these brittle ghosts
won’t love you
as she closes her doors
queen of guilt
queen of grief
remember them
(erase me)
Edited by Edvard Munch - 24/10/2006, 22:42
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